CARS!!

Range Rover

If I could have any vehicle I wanted...this would be it. I live by the Land Rover dealership and I pass by it everyday. I see these awesome vehicles sitting on the lot and I WANT one really bad. One of my friends has one. I love driving it when I get the opportunity. The ride is so smooth, it is like riding in a cloud. They have crappy gas mileage and cost the same amount as a house, but I still want one.

To me this is the ultimate driving experience. I know I will probably never get one without a sugar daddy, but it never hurts to dream does it?!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

It's my birthday

Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday to me! Today is my 38th birthday! Dayum where did the time go? I can remember like it was yesterday, when I was 8, 18, and 28. Inside I don't feel 38. I want to stop the clock. I feel like I am running out of time to do the things I have always wanted to do. I also feel like I haven't planned well for the future. I am really a live for today kinda person. With 40 being 2 years away, I need to do better to plan for my future.

I had a trip to NYC planned to go celebrate my birthday, but everyday life stepped in and ruined that, so I spent my day doing nothing and was perfectly happy doing it. I finished reading the 6th installment of Harry Potter. I did treat myself to dinner but nothing fancy.

So this is what 38 feels like? Oh man, I am gonna hate 40!!

Friendships

I have maybe 3 people in my life that I call my best friend. When you think of the term best friend you think about middle school and high school. I used to have tons of "best friends", but as I grew older I realized that they weren't really my best friends but an merely acquaintances.

I am an EXTREMELY private person when it comes to what I tell people about myself or my life. I feel that people "betray" my trust more often than not. The 3 people who are my best friends probably don't know the "full" me. Does that make me a horrible person? I like to think not, but I do think there is something a bit abnormal about that. There are days that my life just downright sucks, but I never tell anyone because I don't trust anyone with my "secrets", my thoughts, or my feelings. It is takes a lot for me to share with anyone. Writing in a blog is a stretch for me.

I have issues with how much information is too much. I think everyone in their life should have ONE person they can tell ANYTHING to and not worry about it getting back to your "community" of friends/acquaintances. I don't think I have that one person in my life. I have my 3 "bests" that I tell certain things to, but one of the 3 may know certain things the other 2 don't know or vice versa. Is that weird? Am I a paranoid person or just a distrusting one? I think that it is a sad statement in my life that I don't have one person I trust with "myself". It isn't like I have this secret life or exciting life, other than my usual drama.

I guess I shouldn't worry about it because it has gotten me by for 37 years, 11 months and 21 days.

Hello...My name is...and I am an internet ADDICT!!

I have come to the realization I am an internet addict. Yes, really I am. Since I have moved into my new place I have been without my DSL for 3 weeks. Let me just say the withdrawals have NOT been nice. I have been cranky, miserable and just generally unpleasant to be around. I didn't figure it out until last night that this was the reason I have been so unhappy.

I have SBC for DSL service and let me tell you I have given them a piece of the little bit of mind I have left. WHY does it take 3 weeks to transfer my DSL service from one place to another? Why are you advertising DSL service, knowing full well that it takes 2-3 weeks to get installed? I have been talking to supervisors and managers and they all have the same answer..."I don't know." Well, why don't you know? See? See how bad off I am? I have complained so much about not having DSL, SBC has given me a 3 month credit for DSL (once the MF is on), dial up free, and a "special" price of $12.95 per month. That STILL didn't make me happy, but I took it. I have been using dial up and all it does is frustrate the hell out of me. I feel like I am back in the 1990s with the 24kbp and you thought that was fast. UMMM NOT! I keep getting kicked off line, the service is so slow, that I have just said forget it. I am so miserable when I am at home.

One SBC manager called me up yesterday and said my DSL was up and running yesterday. I got so EXCITED! I was thinking about all the web pages I needed to go to (because some of them are blocked at work) and emails I need to write. And what happened? NOT A DAYUM THING!! NO $%&* DSL! IT WASN'T ON YET! I was and still am pissed about it. But I am trying to not call today because I might lose ALL control and go off on EVERYONE I talk to at SBC. Don't tell me the dayum thing is on and get me all hyped, just to get let down! Okay...see? I have to calm down.

I have to have my daily internet fix. I have to have internet access at work, at home, on my PDA, and on my cell phone. If it isn't working in one of those places, then that throws my whole world off its axis. I am one of those people that would be escorted off the premises because I have too much internet usage. I am writing this post at work and praying no one comes into my office until I am finished. I can't help it! I am seriously addicted!!

Anyone know of a twelve step program?

My DAILY Drama

I am in my car at 6:45 am this morning to go to work. I have an hour commute to and from work everyday. It is a sacrifice I am making so my daughter will have the chance of not being a dumbass. Yes, I am talking about schools. But that is not why I have drama. I have realize that I cannot exist without my daily dose of drama. My life would not be complete without something coming up on a daily basis.

Today my drama was two flat tires...at the same time, on the same side. I was on the main intersection by my house when they both blow out. So that means two new tires I cannot afford, but have to get. Oh and by the way, I am driving my grandmother's BMW, in which I learned how to drive, so that tells you how old it is...Well maybe not. :) At least I am riding in something. As I am sitting in the car, after my frenzed call to Triple A, I realize I am not upset or panicked. Typically, I am whining and complaining, moaning and groaning about how life is unfair to me and ONLY me. Yes it is ALL about me! Just kidding!! I was so calm it was almost frightening. I had 2 passersby ask if I needed help. That made me feel so good, even though they could have been serial killers, but just the thought that they stopped. I made a good decision in moving to the 'Burbs.

Then a HOT policeman stopped and offered to have me towed to where I needed to go. Once again, what a nice town! I had been waiting an hour and still no tow truck driver. Mr. Foine Ass policeman waited with me. So I call Triple A back and the chick I had spoken to previously had all my info jacked the hell up. But still THAT didn't even phase me. Any other time I would have been yelling and cursing at the lady even though it wasn't HER fault the other bitch messed up...opps...I regressed. So I calmly give her my info AGAIN and Mr Tow truck driver shows up in 15 mins. So I get the Grey Goose (yes that is my name for the car) towed to a tire place and proceed to get her 2 new shoes.

It hit my budget hard and that would have set me off before, but as I have stated...it was just my daily drama! No worries mon!

Weather Pixie

It ain't working cuz it is hot as HELL outside today and it says 82 degrees...ummm yeah where is that cuz I want to go.

What's In a Name?

I "borrowed" this from my friend Marissa. Thanks for sharing Mari!

Kimberly is the #24 most common female name.
0.504% of females in the US are named Kimberly.
Around 642600 US females are named Kimberly!
source namestatistics.com

Kim is the #118 most common female name.
0.178% of females in the US are named Kim.
Around 226950 US females are named Kim!
source namestatistics.com

I thought Kimberly would be higher up on the list. It seems like EVERY girl I was in grade school with was named Kimberly or Kim. We had to go by our last names in class. It really sucked at times. I used to want to go by my middle name, but my teachers could never pronounce it. So I was stuck with the last name.

Work

I had always said I would never really talk about work on my blog. I didn't want the IT police coming to my office and escorting me off the premises. But I just have to talk about work today. I am a benefits manager and my company went through open enrollment for benefits. It lasted 2 weeks. Now I am receiving all the forms back from everyone. My company has about 900 employees and I am used to handling an enrollment of up to 6000, so I thought 900 should be a breeze. WELL, WHAT KIND OF DAYUM DRUGS WAS I ON to think that?!

This has been the worst open enrollment I have ever experienced. First, this place is stuck in the 20th century. Can we get some electronic "paperwork" instead of tons of paper? Everything is on paper. The poor, suffering trees. And people wonder why we have an ozone problem! Opps...got off on a tangent. Second, I have a Human Resources ASSistant that doesn't like to work. She was to help me get the packets mailed out, did like 10 and left the rest for me. Once the enrollment forms arrived back from the employees, she was to help me enter the information into our payroll system. She did 20 of those and said her hands hurt and she was tired. WHAT??!!!

Oh, just a little background on her...she has rheumatoid arthritis. I am VERY sympathic to medical illnesses, as I have experienced some myself. But she just plain doesn't want to work. She constantly talks about her arthritis...ENOUGH ALREADY! I am here to work! She was told BEFORE enrollment stated that she would have to step up to the plate and help me more than she has been. She said no problem. Well...Houston we have a problem!

I have been staying late at work trying to make sure all the benefit information is in to all of the carriers, doing data entry into our payroll system and this cow leaves work on time everyday and she is TIRED?! Yeah right! My eyes are going crossed from looking at the computer screen today. I have keyed in 450 enrollment forms. And she has done none today. I guess I am just going to have to put my foot down and say "You do 100 of these by Tuesday or we have problems!" The HR managers are afraid of her because of her arthritis and ADA...but I'm not...she has not requested any accomodations for her arthritis and she knew what she was getting into when she took the job. I know I sound like an unsympathetic beyotch...but can I just have someone who takes work as seriously as I do?

Third, the employees are really DUMB! They don't change their address when they move. Don't you check your pay stub or pay check? It has the address on there. That is why you didn't get a packet. Open enrollment is OVER people. DON'T call me saying you forgot! Well, I forgot to put in your information! We have been sending out annoucements for a month, before and during the enrollment period. Don't tell me you forgot and you want to send in your form or want me to send you a form. TOO BAD, SO SAD! IT AIN'T HAPPENING! What part of that isn't clear? That is why it is called open enrollment period!

Thank goodness it is a 3 day weekend because I might have to go postal on people! Get your bail money together! Trina, brush off those criminal law books!! I am on the EDGE, so don't push me OVER! :)