Friday, December 30, 2005


Most people who know me know that I am obsessed with books and reading. I have a library in my house. Lately, I hadn't felt like reading much. Nothing has appealed to me lately. I wanted something that would take away me away, if just for a little while, from my sadness and misery.

I was wondering around Barnes and Noble, hoping that I would find a book that at least peaked my interest. I read everything from non fiction, historial, romance, "regular fiction" and the almight "Chick Lit". I used to spend about $100 a month on books. That is a lot of dayum books. During my wondering around I found a book that I decided to read. I feel incomplete when I leave B&N without a book.

Don't laugh at me but the book I picked up was a good one. Maybe I didn't expect much and that is why it was so good. Okay here it is...TA DA!

The Pregnancy Test
I really liked this book. It was funny, sexy, and very light reading. I didn't really have to think about anything other than I wished life could be like this. It is about a 20 something chica that gets pregnant by a 40 something man. He basically abandons her to be pregnant alone. Don't fret! She comes out of it good. It gives one hope that there are really men out there like the one she meets after she finds out she is pregnant.

If you want a no brainer book to read, pick up this one! I thoroughly enjoyed it.

I was so upset Shelley Halima's new book, Los Morenos, didn't come out as scheduled! I mean man that was so mean of her publisher to make us wait until November for the book When November rolls around they say ummm opps it is really January 2006! I mean can a sista just get a good book to read now?

I am also waiting for Mary Castillo to come out with her sequel to "Hot Tamara"!

Hurry, Mary, Hurry!!

This is torture!!

Saturday, December 24, 2005

It is official

No more chemo! Yay for me! I was about to call it quits anyway and just give up when my oncologist said I didn't have to come back anymore for chemo. I have to go every month for a year to get blood work done, but , hopefully it won't detect anything.

This year has been a tough one for me physically and emotionally. Hopefully the New Year will be better for me and my family.

Friday, December 16, 2005

Porn Star Name

Your Porn Star Name Is...
Little Miss Muff

Sorry I had to throw this one in for the day. It is too funny! I don't know what that means but it doesn't sound good.

What Martini are you?

My really good friends know I am a funny drunk. I typically fall down or laugh at the stupiest stuff. I thought this one was fun because because I have just come back from learning how to make some really fun Cuban drinks. I am typically a rum drinker but enjoy a martini every now and then.

You Are a Dirty Martini

You are a sexy, sometimes belligerent, over the top drunk.
You tend to get in a lot of trouble. When you drink, there are no rules.

You should never: Drink in the company of strangers. Seriously.

Your ideal party: Is so good you black out in the middle of it.

Your drinking soulmates: Those with a Margarita Martini personality.

Your drinking rivals: Those with an Orange Martini personality

Friday, December 09, 2005

Biopsy Results

I got my biopsy results today. Drumroll please...........
They were negative. No cancer cells, just a benign growth. I have a lot of those these days. I am told it is perfectly ok to leave it alone and it should shrink on its own. So we will see about that.

I am on chemo already so it makes me feel better that I don't have to add more toxins to my toxic waste site.I am just ready for it to all be over with. I go to my oncologist next week so we will see if I have to keep on going.

Maybe it will all be over soon!

Monday, December 05, 2005


Okay I have been sufficiently humiliated enough for one life time. I had my breast biopsy. Of course, I have to get exposed and have more strangers feeling up my boobs. I had it done. First, the radiologist didn't numb me up properly and seemed to be upset when she took the sample and I protested in pain. They took 4 samples and each time was worse than the other.

I took the day off from work and dayum am I glad I did. I went home with a throbbing teta, and not the good kind of throbbing either. I felt like my chest was en fuego! After all that pain, I know the treatment can't be much better.

Oh well waiting for the results!

Friday, December 02, 2005

Ice Cream

You Are The Godfather Ice Cream

Someone crosses you, and they'll end up with a scoop of this in their bed
I love ice cream! And wouldn't you know I am the GODFATHER! Hell yeah that's me!! :)

Thursday, December 01, 2005


Typically I try to be positive about the goings on in my life but today I just can't do it. My life sucks right now. About a month ago I found a lump in my breast with a huge bruise around it. Okay, so I go see my MD and she says let's do a mammogram. Can I just add that I am ALREADY on freaking CHEMO?!! I go have the mammogram and ultrasound done.

First, let me say this...having a mammogram can be a humiliating thing when you have big boobs. They slap your stuff all around in the machines like it isn't attached to you. Then they smash it, until it is flat. PAINFUL!! I know it is a necessary thing but man can you invent a different way of screening? I don't want to discourage any of you women out there from getting one done but be aware of what happens.

After I have the mammogram and ultrasound, this perky radiologist comes out and says, "Well you have some pre-cancerous cells in there,but we need to do a biopsy to make sure. But we don't do that here." WHAT?! Okay so now I have precancerous cells in my teta and you can't do the biopsy here?? I call the insurance company and they are so mixed up they can't understand this is a new "cancer" problem! Dealing with insurance companies is a freaking workout...AND I am a Benefits Manager!!

So finally I got my biopsy approved and found a place that can do it, but wait...I have to WAIT 2 weeks before they can get me in to do it! I AM A FREAKING TIME BOMB HERE PEOPLE!! I need help NOW not two weeks from now. I could be loosing valuable time. But alas, they didn't care to hear that and it made no difference. My biopsy is scheduled for 12/5/05. So I ask my current oncologist if I have to do a different kind of chemo if I have breast cancer. She tells me, "Well, let's see what it is first." I don't want to hear that. I want to know what my options are so I can make plans or not be taken by surprise. Is that asking too much?

Pray for me people, cuz I don't know how much more of this I can take in one life time!!